I am really having a hard time on keeping up with this blog, not that I don’t have the time to post some new entry but rather I don’t have the energy to post some new article. If you are thinking that this is because I am diabetic then I believe that you are wrong. I am having a hard time sleeping since we are taking care of our mother who has recently has gone out of the hospital.
I always how hard it is to take care of a patient but I never imagine that it would be this hard that I would have to deprive myself of sleep in order to take care of my bed-ridden mother. Although this is not the first time that we have someone to take care who is also bed-ridden. I remember my late father who died 10 years ago that he is also bed-ridden but I never did take care of him. This is what one of the things that I am regretting in my life. This is also the reason why I bow that I would take care of my mother. I don’t want to feel guilty that I never did something to ease her pain. I want to make this short so I am cutting a few part of this story.
Yesterday I got angry when my brother gives my mother some insulin when her blood sugar is too low. I was afraid that my mother would die because of this since this is the same thing that happened both to my late father and brother. The last thing that I remember is that their blood sugar is to low. They have suffered from hypoglycemia, when they fall sleep, they never did wake up. I am afraid that the same fate would happen to my mother. Even though my mom is having a hard time speaking, she carefully explained that she knows her body very well. She told me that there are lots of foods around and she is eating from time to time so there is no real worry. After my mother explained that she knows about that then my worries were gone. I think that I am worrying too much about diabetis or maybe this is the effect of not having a god night sleep.
